28 December 2007
1) The wicked men flees though no one pursues, but the righteous are as bold (Batak: trust, confident, secure) as a lion
5) Evil men do not understand justice, but those who seek (Baqash: require, desire, exact, request) the Lord understand it fully
13) He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses (yadah: throw, shoot, cast) and renounces (azab: forsake, loose, leave) them finds mercy (racham: compassion, love)
22 December 2007
My rewritten verses...of encouragement and holding on...
When everything around you falters and the world is crashing in, my unfailing love, my faithfulness will never be shaken; it will never fail, slip, fall or be overthrown by this world, and my promise of peace-wholeness, contentment-will never leave, says the Lord-who has tender affection and compassion for you.
The Lord your God-whom you know closest to you, is in your midst, at the seat of your thoughts and mind, he is a victorious warrior-a mighty one who gives victory and delivers from sin and guilt and torment. He will take great joy and rejoice over you when you go to Him. He will be quiet in his love-loving you the same as he loved Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. Renewing that love- and shot over you in joy as you return to your God in Christ.
I think this help describes my life. There was a storm a while ago, with real lightning and thunder (odd for Hawaii), and it reminds me of my life. A storm, but beautiful in His hands.
03 November 2007
We got to the concert and found that our seats were directly on the side of the stage..so even though we could see the screen showing us the artists, we couldn't see them head on. But we were talking about the seats...and this guy in front of us (who I thought was gonna tell us to be quiet) said he had two tickets on the floor and we could have them...for free! So we took them and got to sit next to some of his youth group kids.
What a miracle.
Starting on Friday -- Leah and I had marvelous plans of driving to Pensacola FL to hang out on the beach, then head back to Mississippi, and the next day head to New Orleans and explore for the day. Returning Saturday and able to be at church on Sunday to say goodbye.
It turns out that our scheduled pickup for the rental car was 10am, but we didn't actually drive away with it until noon. We headed to Pensacola with plans to stop by the Olive Garden in Mobile (about 45 min away from Biloxi) to grind...and because we ate so much we needed to walk some of it off...so we took about a 2 hour pit stop. By the time we got to Pensacola, it was around 430 at least...and it was chilly outside and the sun was preparing to set. Not the best time to head to the beach. Thankfully our classmate (Nursing student with Leah, ROTC with both of us) Tiv McMann is stationed at Eglin AFB and lives about 20 min or so out of Pensacola...so we drove to see her. (Another blessing--otherwise both Leah and I would have broken down because of a waste of a whole day). So we played with Gavin, and her newest one Everett (9 months and incredibly adorable!) and saw Tiv popping out and due in a lil bit.
We finally got home around 1am...and crashed...getting ready for a new day and off to New Orleans.
For the highlight of the afternoon, we thought a swamp tour would be a good way to check out the south...we just didn't know we'd be so up close and personal...
Living in one of these...might not be so pretty. But this one survived Katrina..notice the trees fell around it...
After the tour ended we headed back to Bourbon street area for some dinner and finishing up tourist shopping...and...I got to see the Mississippi river!!
28 October 2007
For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, (NIV)
hoped (elpizo): to wait for salvation with joy and full confidence; hopefully to trust in
adorn (kosmeo): to put in order, arrange, make ready, prepare, to ornament, adore
submissive (hupotasso): in a military term--> arranging troops under the command of a leader; in a non military term--> voluntary attitude of giving in, cooperating, assuming responsibility and carrying a burden...same word submit in Eph 5:21-22
I started 1 Peter a few days ago...on the whim that I've diagnosed myself as "lukewarm" and the book had been on my heart in recent teachings and various other things. I read the above verse, and didn't think too much on it... other than the desire to be like the women of the past who were beautiful...and today after returning from church... I was prompted to do a word study. Reading the NASB version, the three words above struck me and dug deeper.
Hoped-the idea of waiting for salvation with FULL CONFIDENCE knowing it is not wavering or could be taken...was intense and moving for me
Adorn-not just making oneself pretty or attractive-but making ready and preparing...
Submissive-the word that has so many awful negative connotations with it--but really--a voluntary attitude of giving in, assuming responsibility and carrying a burden. I can't tell you how many times I've read books that have tried to clear up the misconception about submission...but this...this was clearer than anything I've read before.
I am blessed...struggling...but praising at all times...
24 October 2007
Man. Mississippi has definitely brought some interesting experiences...to include... FILLINGS!
You guessed it, good 'ole Brenda who went all her youth without cavities, had a dental cleaning a month ago to discover cavities in all four quadrants. Craziness. Needless to say I've had 3 taken care of (2 a couple weeks ago, one earlier today, and one tomorrow morning). They're hoping for the last one that fluoride and flossing will keep it at bay... Not digging it at all.
Anyway-that's all. Just a random update.
22 October 2007
|You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness; therefore God, your God, has set you above your companions by anointing you with the oil of joy. (NIV) |
Thou hast loved righteousness, and hated iniquity; therefore, God, even thy God, hath anointed thee with the oil of gladness above thy fellows.
|‘Because You’ve loved righteousness and hated iniquity,’ said the Father to the Son, ‘You are anointed with the oil of gladness above all others.’|
Did you know that gladness is directly proportional to holiness? Happiness and holiness go hand in hand. That is why crowds flocked around Jesus. Wasn’t He the Man of sorrows (Isaiah 53:3)? Certainly. But there was also a gladness and joy about Him unlike that of any other human being in history. Jesus was immensely attractive to the crowds because holiness and happiness are directly proportional.
Some folks don’t see this until they’re 40 or 50 or 60 years old. And some never see it at all. They think holiness is drudgery. They think if they’re righteous, they won’t be happy, that they’ll just have to endure the pain of Christianity. But nothing is further from the truth.
To the extent you choose to be holy is the extent to which you will be happy. Conversely, to the extent you compromise holiness is the extent to which you diminish happiness. It’s just that simple.
-Jon Courson 22 Oct
21 October 2007
In the meanwhile, I looked back and realized for the whole month of October I've made a whopping--3 or 4 posts, not too exciting compared to the 12something the month before. Granted October is halfway through-but no matter your math level, you realize the numbers don't match. Anyway, I was trying to figure out why this had happened...and I think perhaps it's because I found other ways to occupy my time. And some of it perhaps because I didn't have any pictures to upload...but really, it's because I found other things to distract me. Things like...watching TV episodes online (Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, Ugly Betty and sometimes Big Shots). Needless to say...although my academics have not fallen...perhaps other areas of my life have...quiet time and working out. It's hard to admit when someone is a problem...but perhaps it brings accountability. Because here I am open to the world--saying...I need a revival. And I know.
I know that at the other end He is knocking and all I have to do is answer. And sometimes...I have to get knocked upside the head twice to learn a lesson...sometimes more than that. And sometimes...it takes time to come around. But in the end...I'll be here. I'll be here seeking with all my heart, with all my passion...with all my yearning wanting to be His little one. To be His princess.
Thanks Daddy. Thanks.
08 October 2007
It was emotional, the plane couldn't have landed any slower from LA to HNL, probably because it was my last leg before I could see my husband. But thankfully, I landed safe and sound...and was picked up by my amazing husband. Who swiftly brought me sushi and headed off to Friday night with the gang...where I ran into some people...
The next day we headed to Barbers Point for the surf clinic with One Love...though I probably should have asked to be pushed...my pride got in the way... and I opted to try on my own. Thankfully I actually caught one wave...and enjoyed it while it lasted. Marcus totally spoiled me and took care of everything!
Off to Wahoo's for some lunch (note to self, not likely to go there again-South Shore Grill off of Diamond head is much better)
Friday night was an awakening...with God guiding and a new beginning...I am blessed.
Who still makes me smile, even when she cries when I hold her...
As you can tell, Saturday was filled with errands and running around. Between Marcus and I needing running shoes, grabbing some umiyage (sp?) for some peeps who wanted some stuff from Hawaii...getting a new camera (to replace the old dead one)...and making time for "us"...it was full. Needless to say Sunday wasn't much better, as we had to go to the NEX exchange the camera (thought I could go for a Casio, but realized I totally loved knowing how the heck to use my Canon)...and the Running Room (I thought I needed to exchange my shoes, but found out that they're probably my best option). Sunday morning we listened to Cornerstone and the Holy Spirit-the most driving force was having all the knowledge but not applying it. Worthless.
Anyway, after errands Sunday, and breakfast...we headed home and got ready for some last minute time in the sun...at nothing better than Kaimaina's beach. LOVE IT!
After this...sitting there...I realized-I am SUCH an island girl. I love the ocean. I love the sun. That's what I am. I loved living in Micronesia for the same thing...the fish, the ocean, the life.
This trip taught me something else--to not things for granted. Taking Marcus for granted...I mean. Poor guy. Hurricane Brenda hit the apartment! No joke it was soo clean when I got there, and I pretty much wrecked it. But it also motivates me to try and b e a more tidy person... Ask me about that as I leave for ASBC in Jan...if I'm still like that.
Such a whirlwind of a weekend. But so amazing at the same time.
Signing off, calm and super blessed...
04 October 2007
1 A psalm of David. O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief. 2 Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you. 3 The enemy pursues me, he crushes me to the ground; he makes me dwell in darkness like those long dead. 4 So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed. 5 I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done. 6 I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. 7 Answer me quickly, O LORD; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. 8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. 9 Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD, for I hide myself in you. 10 Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. 11 For your name's sake, O LORD, Chayah (revive) my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. 12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes, for I am your servant.
It has been a while, mainly because I've tried to wean myself off the internet and all the crazy things I get distracted doing...you'd be amazed how much stuff you can do online...browse stores, check your account, the news, the weather. Holy smokes. Plus during the week there isn't a lot of time in the evenings...between coming home from class, working out, eating, studying...not a lot of time at all. Anyway. That's why I've been gone. Plus, not having a camera is a big bummer...I think that's part of the reason I don't post so much.
But, I'm stoked to say that tomorrow morning I'll be heading to the airport where I'll 16 hours away from Honolulu...and all the wonderful things that are encompassed in Honolulu. =)
The Psalm is a good representation of how I've been feeling lately...just with my walk with God...
Not much more to say...
signing off-grateful for the Lord's mercy and grace.
21 September 2007
And once I got there this morning I talked with the lady in my category (Sheryl) and we've seen each other at the WOC and working out...and when she told me her estimated times for the events (200 yd swim, 6 mi ride, 2 mi run) I knew that she pretty much had me beat. Especially since she's been training probably.
I was surprised with my times this morning, although my swim was a little slow (probably about 4 minutes), transitioning to bike about 2.5 minutes, biking 23 min (think it should have been faster, I thought this was an 8 mi ride and that should have been done in 25-30 min) then transition to run about 1 min then run...amazingly I surprised myself with this time--about 18:30 for two miles....so it's less than a 10 min mile, and it's after all that stuff. I was happy with that. The Lord even gave me some strength to sprint it out the last few feet and really push. End time (I think--final results posted later today) 48:06.
The winning time for my category was 47:42. That's right. Lost by 24 seconds.
Interestingly enough, my number was 24. =)
I have a trophy, I have a shirt, I worked out, and I did better than I personally expected on the run. God met me and I enjoyed the time...and I got free bananas to take home. I'm happy.
Thanks for the support. I even had a cheerleader here--her name is Stacy, I've met her once before and she was doing the relay (Swimming) and she cheered me on, apparently impressed that I did all three events. She called me her hero. =D
Thank you Lord. To you be the glory forever and ever.
Signing off-heading to Olive Garden with Stacy, and content in the Lord.
|Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross;|
|NIV: having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross.|
|The sins which have plagued you are written on a list. Santa Claus makes a list and checks it twice in order to find out who’s naughty and nice. Our Father, on the other hand, makes a list and checks it once. Then He nails it to the Cross, where the blood of His Son covers it completely. The list of our sins, shortcomings, and stupidity is blotted out in totality by the blood of the Son of God.|
Many Christians aren’t healthy because they fail to understand this foundational and profoundly simple principle. They know they’re forgiven, but they can’t believe the one who hurt them is.
‘You can’t ignore the abuse, the trauma, the anxiety which has been inflicted upon you,’ they are told. ‘It must be dealt with.’
Wait a minute! It wasn’t ignored, and it has been dealt with by Jesus’ blood on the Cross. He hung on the Cross of Calvary dying for the very sin which bugs us in others. Therefore, for us to say, ‘We gotta dig it up and talk it through,’ makes a mockery of what Christ did on Calvary.
‘It is finished,’ Jesus declared. It’s done. It’s paid for. So be forgiven and forgive one another.
Jon Courson Devotional 21 Sep
Amazing yes? The conviction and reminder that we are to forgive those you who have hurt us...in the same way we have been forgiven.
A little QT before I start to get ready for my race. Fun times. I'll let you know how it goes. Honestly, my goal is to finish in 60 minutes. Not so much about placing or anything.
Signing off, forgiven, excited and stoked.
20 September 2007
But God poured his blessings on me, protected me from Satan's lies, and restored my memory and studying. I got a 97 on the test, missing one question (error in thinking, had I slowed down to really think about it, I could have gotten it right).
But a 97 is incredibly higher than my 63 (last time)....
Thank you Lord. I did nothing to deserve this. I tried to be faithful with my studying and making it a priority. You are amazing God. It's an encouragement to continue studying, to continue pursuing my education with persistence and questions, and study sessions.
Back to class this afternoon...and then the freedom of a 3 day weekend. One weekend closer to coming home to Hawaii... and seeing my beloved husband...and Hawaii...and my amazing Hawaiian fellowship. =)
19 September 2007
NIV: Do not love sleep or you will grow poor; stay awake and you will have food to spare.
Note, 1. Those that indulge themselves in their ease may expect to want necessaries, which should have been gotten by honest labour. "Therefore, though thou must sleep (nature requires it), yet love not sleep, as those do that hate business. Love not sleep for its own sake, but only as it fits for further work. Love not much sleep, but rather grudge the time that is spent in it, and wish thou couldst live without it, that thou mightest always be employed in some good exercise." We must allow it to our bodies as men allow it to their servants, because they cannot help it and otherwise they shall have no good of them. Those that love sleep are likely to come to poverty, not only because they lose the time they spend in excess of sleep, but because they contract a listless careless disposition, and are still half asleep, never well awake. 2. Those that stir up themselves to their business may expect to have conveniences: "Open thy eyes, awake and shake off sleep, see how far in the day it is, how thy work wants thee, and how busy others are about thee! And, when thou art awake, look up, look to thy advantages, and do not let slip thy opportunities; apply thy mind closely to thy business and be in care about it. It is the easy condition of a great advantage: Open thy eyes and thou shalt be satisfied with bread; if thou dost not grow rich, yet though shalt have enough, and that is as good as a feast."
-Matthew Henry Commentary on Prov 20:13
Holy smokes. This has such great timing, as last night, I went to sleep at 630pm, and woke up this morning. About 9.5 hours of sleep, and although I was rejoicing in this matter, I've realized that I wasn't being as effective as I could have been. I should stayed awake longer to be faithful to my work (studying for test this morning) and to be with Him. I could have gone to bed on time...and still been ok.
Thank you Lord for revealing it to me...and for your grace and forgiveness. You are amazing, and I don't deserve anything.
Signing off-with a revelation and a lesson learned
17 September 2007
And I had my DR appt today (couldn't do lunch workout) and things are going ok...all ready for my trip home. And I had some great food at the hospital chow hall...and I got to eat lunch with an O-6 and an E-8.
Signing off-stoked and ready to roll.
16 September 2007
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phil 4:6
I'll work backwards (most likely not in chronological order)...
I have been blessed with the opportunity to come home to Hawaii for a brief period. As most do know (though I found out today Mari didn't :P) It'll be a 48 hour trip--about 24 hours of travel for 48 hours of paradise pleasure. I'm very excited. To see Marcus and be with him, to enjoy the tropical environment: Swim at Kaimana's, surf somewhere, walk on the beach barefooted, delight my taste buds with: spicy ahi rolls, endamame, and Korean food, and to fellowship with friends (as time allows). And of course, to see my princess Abigail. I've heard she's grown a lot...I'm excited to get to see her one last time before she turns one (Nov 8-I'll be home after that).
I've also been blessed with the opportunity to enjoy Shane & Shane tomorrow evening in a town about 25 minutes away. I'll be able to go with some friends from church...and it should be pretty cool. I'm very excited!
On the other end of things, last Thursday (6 Sep) I failed one of my block exams. Failing an exam isn't a good thing, whereas if you fail a quiz, you have opportunity to prove it was a flop by not failing the next, without major academic reprimand or consequences. Because I failed, I had to retake it the following Tuesday (11 Sep) but could only receive a score of 70 regardless of my retake score. Thankfully I was given a second chance, and I did score a 93 the second time around...but I have lost the opportunity to grasp any academic awards for this course. There have definitely been a lot of lessons learned because of this. First and foremost I realized how off task I was with my schooling. I had put working out ahead of studying, and used fellowship and Bible study as an excuse to not studying. Thinking that God would "bless me" for my choice of choosing Him first, when really I was using him as an excuse to not study and be lazy. Unfortunately I didn't learn my lesson the following Thursday morning (13 Sep) and I failed a quiz. Apparently I needed to be disciplined more than once...and thankfully...this failed quiz is prayerfully the last thing I need discipline for. I initiated a study session with one of my instructors on Friday afternoon, where a classmate and I stayed with him for over 2 hours reviewing a lecture and preparing for a quiz we have tomorrow. I also met with the same classmate this afternoon for a study session. Tuesday at lunch I have another study session, before my test on Wednesday.
Speaking of lunches, I've been trying to work out and get in shape and lose weight and all that good stuff. I found a free spinning class at lunch on Mon/Wed/Fri (when there is school). Even though it's interesting trying to change out of uniform and into workout clothes and shower and change back into uniform and grab food to eat in class (no time for lunch during lunch), it's been quite an experience getting back on the bike...and working harder than I normally do when I ride at home on the streets. Since MWF is workout lunches, Tues/Thurs are my study lunches. Although some issues have prevented me from studying the past Tues/Thurs during lunch...but this week should be different, especially since I set up a session with an instructor for Tuesday (and it's before a test).
This upcoming Friday (21 Sep) is a down Friday, meaning we don't have class. I'm not quite sure what I'll be doing with this free time...
The last 3 day weekend we had, I was able to go with some of my classmates to Pensacola (7 Sep). We left Friday morning, and my friend CJ brought me back to Keesler on Saturday afternoon-in time for Bible study that evening. I had a blast in Pensacola. We went to the beach (it was clean, it was beautiful, it was clean water with some crazy waves breaking close to shore) and we went out for some dancing. It was very fun. Then back to the beach on Saturday. Some of them also tried sailing, but I stayed on shore out of the water (apparently there were alligator sightings). Check out some pics:
The view of Pensacola beach as we were leaving. I had so much fun hanging out on the beach and stuff...I forgot to take pictures.
I took so many pictures on Friday that Saturday morning I hardly had any battery left. I had enough to take this picture:
It's Kim sunbathing...without getting her face burnt. LOL. It's amazing what we do yeah?
Anyway. That's that...what else. My friend David Kim from church got engaged to his girlfriend this past Friday (14 Sep) and I was invited to go to the engagement party...that was good fun! I got to meet her (Shannon) and I got to hang out with Jen Jones.
I had to say goodbye to Joseph. He left this past weekend because his class was over. You might remember him as the Older Brother that drove me around a lot the first weekend I got here...thanks to Mariko who knew him from her class. We had some ono dinner at Ruby Tuesday's...and it was good fun. I'm glad I got to meet him, and hang out before he left.
Anyway. Time to review some notes before I go to bed. Another weekend come and gone. Another day closer to coming back to Hawaii.
Thank you for your love and prayers. And if you get a chance, feel free to try leaving a comment. It should work without having to sign in (Tricia ah*hem).
Signing off-Blessed to be his Beloved.