29 April 2010

just a quickie...

My sleep gets all sorts of screwy when marcus works nights. Either 4-mid, or mi-8. Either way... last night got to sleep late, which made getting up early to read with Sachi difficult, but still got there and had a good morning with her. I forgot how nice it was to be in the word and fellowship in the morning.

My appointment this morning went well...Col Closmann is very pleased with my recovery, and says that it seems the bone graft is definitely taking. Although it will not be done adjusting for another 4-6 weeks, I have now graduated to soft foods! Such exciting news! I will be getting braces to fix my bite that is off (and makes chewing uncomfortable--sadly), but my consultation appointment isn't until June 2 (sadness). My next appt with oral surgery will be in a month or two, depending on what the orthodontist says. He mentioned possibly last resort in order to fix my bite we'd have to break my jaw (I had to smile when he said this. Just a little...) but that's last resort, we'll see what the orthodontist says (Dr. Jensen-haven't met him).

I can walk without crutches now, just with a minor gimp (or depending on how far I've been walking). Pain is manageable with extra strength tylenol and ibuprofen, and I can now drive myself around...it's more moving the neck around that is an issue, as opposed to my leg and the pedals.

After all that, headed home to grab baby for his opthamology appt. Appears we have nothing to worry about with his "lazy eye" and perhaps it's an optical illusion since he has a flat nose bridge, and if it still appears to be an issue in six months, return for another checkup. Otherwise, he's got great eyes (dad was happy to hear, since he was afraid baby would walk out with glasses). Then some errands with the family...and home again, for shower and getting ready for...

My hair cut! Yep, it's gone. Hopefully I can get the donated hair off to Locks of Love soon... perhaps before going back to work. Below are pics from Photobooth (not the best since the lighting isn't that great, but for now)...my hair is dark since I haven't been in the water swimming a lot for a while now. Hopefully that will change since my profile says "walking/swimming at own pace and distance" and walking for a long time isn't exactly enjoyable.


Overall I really like my cut, and my stylist (let me know if you want a recommendation), and God totally blessed me even more today. I went to go get volumizing shampoo/conditioner and look at some other things at Bobbi and Guy at Ward. To my surprise they were having a sale on all ROUND brushes (which is what Kit used to style my hair), so I looked and they had one! Just for me...perfect, and only like $4 something (this brush was normally $13). AMAZING. THEN if you buy certain brands in certain sizes, you can bring it back for a refill... for half the price of buying new ones. Amazing! So for now, I'll be a Paul Mitchell person. So exciting. AND they give a military discount. 10%. Awesome. Next adventure-finding some styling stuff ("paste" apparently).

God is lord of all...even the little details. :)

G'night!

27 April 2010

Well...

So I was asked this evening why I haven't been blogging.
My response was: I haven't been reading. Not completely true, but mostly true.
My second response was: because all I want to do is complain, and yet I know that through this, I should still PRAISE Him. Because He is *most WORTHY to be praised. (Ps 145:3)

I read with Sherri (and in the presence of Brandon) at Glazers on Monday. What a surprise and a blessing. Although, I think if God hadn't put some questions on Sherri's heart, I'm not sure I would have walked away so blessed. We're reading through 1 Corinthians, and that morning she was thinking about the end of chapter 2. Paul goes on from the end of ch1 into ch2 about how the world's take on wisdom is different than the wisdom of God. He talks about how he "resolved to know nothing except Jesus Christ and him crucified..." (v2) and then at the end of the chapter he quotes Isaiah 40:13 " 'For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him?' BUT we have the mind of Christ."

At first earlier she had asked, well what is Christ and him crucified? And then, what does that mean, "We have the mind of Christ." Isn't that arrogant? It brought up a lot of good points... about promises made to us, and how even though we can be arrogant in our salvation, most importantly, we must remember...Jesus Christ and him crucified...

Philippians 2:1-11
Imitating Christ's Humility
1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death--
even death on a cross!
9Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

That was Monday. Today's reading was disrupted by cranky child, and not picked up again.

Another reason no blogging-bejeweled blitz. It's like crack. Really. Worse than donut holes.

But tomorrow is another day. And I'm meeting with Sachi in the morning in 7hrs, at our favorite starbucks (well, we all know how I feel about starbucks), but still.

the Word and Fellowship - no better way to start off my day before my appt at tripler for my followup.

I'll let you know how it goes.

g'night!

15 April 2010

Things I'm looking forward to...

*laughing and sneezing without pain
*walking without assistance or hobbling in pain
*jogging
*swimming! it hurts kicking...(4/25)
+sleeping on my side... I CAN! (4/28-for a while at least... :D)
*driving
*eating:
-an Andy's smoked ahi sandwich
-chips and salsa with cream cheese
-ninja roll from Gyotaku
-veggie pizza from Magoo's
-Cobb salad (no mushrooms) from I Love Country Cafe (NEX food court)
-delicious breakfast sandwich with meat, egg, cheese and tomatoes
-fajitas...with onions and bell peppers and steak...

That's it for now...


13 April 2010

Hair cut?

Well faithful readers... it's time for some polling...

I'm considering getting my hair cut. Well it's a little more than considering... I asked my friend Angie about her hair stylist, because she has amazing hair. Really, she's beautiful and her hair is always amazing. She inspired me to get the digital perm, and since I was growing my hair out for Marcus (he likes long hair), he offered to pay for my perm (quite pricey those things). Anyway, I guess Ang is my hair inspiration. So I asked about her stylist, and she gave me his card, and I never called him. So the other day she offered to bring me to her hair appointment, so I could meet him. I was excited to meet him because she told me he's honest, and I love stylists that are honest with you (like, I want to do this to my hair... no you don't).

Anyway. If I'm going to cut it, it's going to be all of it, since I want to donate it to Locks of Love (minimum of 10")... so unlike Kit's original suggestion of going gradual, I won't necessarily being doing it that way. Below are some pictures of hair styles I'm thinking about... interested in your feedback.

a) b)
c) d)

12 April 2010

Life update...

I suspect it's time for an update. Especially since I went to the doc this morning. This is what he said:
-Don't spend all day in bed, You could get blood clots. But don't put a lot of weight on your right leg. Just live life like normal...with crutches... do you want a cane?
-Let's get those staples out .... hunh, looks a little red. No ocean or pool for at least a week... ok fine you can go in this weekend, as long as it looks better than this. No, I wouldn't be concerned about those red dots.
-Your neck looks great. No, don't pick at the glue, it'll come off on its own Yeah, your bone graft will change shape for the next six months or so. The bone was cut into blocks you know, we tried to shape it accordingly, but it'll eventually calm down and look normal...but I'm fairly confident your graft is taking... as long as there is no ooze coming out anywhere, or swelling.... etc.
-NO, no chewing. Biting counts as chewing. Not for another 4 weeks.
-Looking good, see you in TWO weeks! Then we'll talk about braces...and try to stop taking narcotics... try to just take tylenol and ibuprofen.

I think that's about all the updates from the mouth people. I about killed myself on my crutches walking down the hall at the oral surgery clinic. Good one hunh?

Otherwise...looks like I'll be be back at work on time, and feeling exponentially better in a couple weeks. I hope so...

In the meantime, I have some gory pics... but as noted by the baby blog post from yesterday... I'm not really into downloading pics lately, trying to minimize my computer time...

03 April 2010

Layin' back...

Well, I'm trying to take it easy. So far think I'm doing ok. I mean, we went to Momentum last night and all that sitting in the wheelchair did a number on my hip. It was about 3 hours, so I think tomorrow morning for church, there will not be as much sitting in the chair as much, and we probably won't stay as long either. Although it was nice to get out, my heart was not in it. Which really sucked, since the whole point was worship. I mean, Good Friday, a day to reflect and remember all of God's goodness because we 'have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God...' (rom 3:23) amazing because the 'wages of sin is death' (rom 6:23) so we all deserve death. But thankfully we 'are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement...' (rom 3:24-25a). It's amazing. Not only did Christ pay the price for us, but he rose from the dead!

Anyway. I mean, the point was I was excited to go to Momentum and worship, but the events through the night didn't make for a great evening. It was hard. Painful. There were complications... but at the end of the night, God made his grace evidence. I knew that he'd prevail. A brother prayed for me, reminding me of God's goodness. And in the morning God was faithful to restore me.

Unfortunately through the night, I forgot... well chose to not take my meds in the middle of the night because I thought I would try to see if I could make it, needless to say I woke up after the fact (1.5hrs after they were due) and it hurt baaad. So I learned my lesson when it comes to meds.

Ah. I must be doing better, because I'm starting to have dreams. Or at least remembering them. Too bad they're crazy dreams. Like this one was that my leg was this weird jello or something and wasn't shaped right. And I was scared it was going to be like that all that time. It was weird. Speaking of dreams. It reminds me of the hospital stay. Dr. Hsu told me to make sure I took deep breaths since my air pockets shrunk a little, but overnight I would wake up gasping for air because my heartrate was so slow, my breathing was very slow. It's crazy weird. I know that for sure my heartrate was as low as 59 bpm... but that breathing thing. Very weird. I don't remember that from the last surgery. I think I was too drugged up. I remembered the nurse kept coming in and telling me that I needed to put the Oxygen mask closer to my face, cause I wasn't breathing.

Someone mentioned before my surgery that I should enjoy my time off with the baby. I really wanted to tell them, "you know, it's not really time off when you're recovering from major surgery. You know, when you cannot move your leg on your own and use this little lasso thing, when I cannot even hold my own son.... no right now, I'm not really enjoying my time off, I'm trying to recovery... which doesn't leave a lot of room for baby." That's my venting.

Actually, today was the first day that the baby was allowed on the bed with me. We keep him on the left side, and there's less danger of him stepping on my hip or grabbing my jaw. He seems to be doing better though. Now that he gets mommy play time, and he can hang out in the bedroom causing mischief. And lately, I'm starting to realize how much I love him. He is very cute. The faces he makes, the things he does... all very adorable. That's one thing I am thankful for, at least I get to watch him. And see him almost walking. Can you believe it, he's almost walking?!?

Hmm.. what else can I talk about? Food. I enjoy eating non chewing foods. Let's see... I had a shakeology this morning, then some blended chili, milk and ovaltine milk throughout the day. Then some Bobba Loca (Peach Mango-thanks Michelle!), some slapchopped spicy ahi poke and chocolate covered strawberries from jamba (great drink-thanks Tricia!) Marcus also went to get Mark today and he went out and grabbed me some delicious mochi and some azuki bean deliciousness. But something I'm looking forward to is some Jamba Oatmeal! Some delicious blueberry blackberry oatmeal :)

That's it for now. I know this is very scatter brained, but it's been the past couple hours that I've been writing it...so... probably time to sign off for the night.

01 April 2010

Swollenness



Well, maybe one day I'll post pics. But it isn't pretty. Good thing I cannot see my hip. I cannot imagine how that looks. Let's see... not eating chewy things are going ok. Marcus is doing great blending stuff for me... Had some poke with rice, and delicious soup from Covenant Books, and this morning he made me a shakeology for breakfast. I also had some greek yogurt with honey, and some Pohnpeiian spaghetti. I think once I can start thinking clearly, I'll start planning some meals so I can stick to healthy stuff. Need to lose some weight you know, since last time I only lost about 7lbs. As long as I lose it healthy, it'll be great. Gotta eat good stuff. Been drinking some v8 Fusion to help get some veggies in too.. and milk for those antibiotics/painkillers in the middle of the night.

Pain. It hurts. The hip is nuts. Like I keep saying over and over, I'm so grateful I don't have both hips jacked up. Dr Closmann even said there was a little bit extra. Although, apparently I have thin bones (darn it, guess I cannot blame being thick boned for being "large" lol). But like I said, miraculously despite thin bones, they still got enough (5"x2") to cover my defect on my jaw, and with a little extra. Now, healing wise we pray that the bone graft takes and there is no failure, or else we'll go through this again. But regardless of what happens, I have to hold on to the fact that my God is a big God, and that he's in charge.

"I will exalt you, my God the King; I will praise your name for ever and ever. Every day I will praise you and extol your name for ever and ever." Ps 145:1-2

Anyway... I cannot think of anything much new to talk about. My face is all sorts of swollen, since the steroids are coming out of my system, it'll be the 72hrs that is the worse of it all... so hopefully after today's pictures the swelling will go back down. I'm not sure. Next appt is on Monday, so it couldn't have been that bad, if they're not making me come back on Friday...so we'll see. I am very thankful that my wheelchair came in today. Yesterday, walking from the car to the elevator and to the door was difficult... even with crutches. So perhaps I might venture out of the apartment tomorrow... with my new ride :)


Checking out the scar... we'll see how it looks finalized

Morning after coming home... 1 Apr

Morning of Surgery... boo boo woke up (30 Mar)