17 March 2011

Breakdown

Sometimes, you just have to let it out. Tonight it happened after a lot of pain. Physical and emotional pain. My jaw muscles are crazy sore. Which leads to tension headaches, or something not enjoyable. My left side hurts like when I used to be able to eat and all I chewed on was on one side, which is crazy since it's not like I'm chewing. Or eating for that matter. Which brings me to the other side of pain--I'm so tired of getting food stuck in my teeth. I tried to eat some minestrone soup, and after like 3 sips I had to clear out my mouth, which got me super irritated (I have been super irritable lately). A friend told me that after 3 weeks it should be easier right? I mean, it's halfway over. But no. It doesn't seem to be getting any easier. But tonight, after talking with Marcus I felt better. I think I try so hard to be so tough...

Savior Please-Josh Wilson
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last


I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

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