20 May 2012

Aloha `oe... (Farewell to Thee)

It is with a heavy heart I write this, sitting in our bed in Clarksville, TN.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVED my trip back to Oahu. I loved it so much, I have a hard time grasping the reality of being back in the Mainland. I wake up, confused being back in TN. It is perhaps doubly hard because the hubby isn't back with us yet... so it's just me and the kid.

It was awesome to see family (my mom, hubby's parents and grandma). To see the Refresh crew, and worship with them. To see the beach, catch up with some old coworkers and friends, and randomly run into different people.

But to leave... was so hard. Emotionally- leaving the church I pretty much grew up in. Leaving an environment that I thrive in (sunny, beach, ocean- things I have loved since living in Pohnpei). And leaving the hubby behind. That made it the hardest.

It's been difficult being back. Today was my first day back at church, and although it was nice to see people again, they said, "Welcome back!" "How was your trip?" My instant selfish thoughts were, "It's not nice to be back, and I wish I was back in HI."  But I smiled and said, "Thank you, it was awesome."

The last song we sang during worship today was "I Surrender All." Kevin talked about something(s) in our lives we need to give up- to let God work. And I was immediately reminded of my "need/desire" to be in HI.

Isaiah 43 is pretty much my hold-on chapter right now. It's all pretty good, but here are some highlights (NASB)
:

1But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob,
         And He who formed you, O Israel,
         “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
         I have called you by name; you are Mine!
2“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
         And through the rivers, they will not overflow you.
         When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched,
         Nor will the flame burn you.
7Everyone who is called by My name,
         And whom I have created for My glory,
         Whom I have formed, even whom I have made.”
10“You are My witnesses,” declares the LORD,
         “And My servant whom I have chosen,
         So that you may know and believe Me
         And understand that I am He.
         Before Me there was no God formed,
         And there will be none after Me.
18Do not call to mind the former things,
         Or ponder things of the past
.
19Behold, I will do something new,
         Now it will spring forth;
         Will you not be aware of it?
         I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
         Rivers in the desert.




For now I hold onto God's promises...that He is enough, that He will sustain me. And I must be faithful with the things He has called me to do right now (another blog).

And right now, I'm glad the next two weeks at work are 4-day weeks. And hubby comes home next Thursday...

~~~Pictures~~
 We surprised Grandma (5/8) and took her out to lunch (at Nico's Pier 38)

 Beach Day! (North Shore-Sunset Beach)

 Checking out the water...

 Breakfast with Marilyn at Kaila's Cafe!

 Lunch with my Gecko Ladies (old coworkers)

 Sunrise-ish Mother's day hike with Nadia (Koko Head: 1000+ stairs)


 Getting ready to go down...

 Four generations family picture (Marcus' Mom's Mom)- Mother's day lunch

 Three generations

 Dragging Grandma into the ocean (Kaimana's Beach)

 Mommy-Kid picture

 Shaved Ice with Grandma after the beach

 Ice Cream with Auntie Michelle

 Late night dinner with the Lee's

 Saying goodbye...

Goodbye to grandma (at the airport)